Monday, June 10, 2013

ppl i wana thank

Kick starting a better *silent* or worst year . Flashing back at those new faces , old faces , familiar faces , and always there – the “wish-not-to-see-them-again faces” ~! Haha ~! God just love us so much sometimes ya ~ Well dear friends , are you happier now or the other way round ? Why ? Plan to make it a brighter one ahead ? You should , you know ? Coz 2007 will be over soon before u even realized it . Just like how 2006 had left us in a glimpse of light *sight* one year by gone … More backstabbers if ur life seemed to be better in their point of view , more friends if u shine among others , more tasks if u r more capable than the rest , more responsibility coz we’re growing up , more cash cash cash coz we worked harder than before , less steps to succeed our dreams n reach our goal , less worries coz we’ve seen more than before , happier coz we don’t care about tiny things happening around us , happier coz we’re a better n stronger person now than before , sad because time ticks away so fast that we cant be able to grab hold every second n spend it worthwhile , sad coz we’d lost our chance due to our mistake , but no matter what’s the outcome , WE are better now … coz we learn from our days … from time to time …
This year , I wish all of you nothing but striking the very best of yourself and achieving all the tough tasks n succumb hard times and downs , ending year 2007 with tears touches ur heart … voice within telling urself that there’s nothing to worry about now , coz you are stronger … I’ll be here in the corner of the world , praying for ur safety n strength alongside u and overcome all the impossible making everything possible … I believe in you … all of you , coz u r my FRIEND …
The sweet ones who’re walking down a rough path in their relationship , have faith in YOUR love … let it lead the way . If it had to end someday , let all of us just pray that the SOMEDAY will come much later … Give a chance to both souls having to pass the test of love … People who ended their relationship recently , pick urself up again , fill those missing pieces by knowing what have u done and not in the past that leads to where u’re standing now and don’t repeat the mistake again in the future … People who felt like it’s time to start a new relationship anytime from now , I’ll ask cupid to aim accurately and shoot ok ? May all the best of luck be with all of you in this very fresh new year of 2007
Im more focused n clear on what I want now . And im very happy coz I have had you people walking alongside me for every step I take … all of you have been so supportive n lovely to me . Thousands of thanks n kisses showered n dedicated specially to YOU , humbly from no other than this lady , me … I know that the economy will be slowing down n reach quite a peak this year but I would like to wish all of u never-the-less than all the best in everything you do and will be very very very lucky ~! Be patient and your time will come to you very soon . Hey , best things always come when u least expected it to ~! Remember this , from me ok ? Girls , I’d moved in to my new condo . If u’d like to join me for a swim in the pool kindly let me know ok ? Then we can go makan makan =)
Kicking start 07 , there’s few people that I would like to thank apart from all my lovely friends who stood by me side-by-side all the time . To these people , I hereby dedicate my words to you …
My dearest Lou Poh Zai a.k.a Apple a.k.a Waiwai a.k.a Lim Kah Hui a.k.a Karena a.k.a My Manager ( fui yoh ~! )
There’s always something about pieces . Soft and sensitive yet wise n smart . Thanks for all your love , your trust , your care , your surprises and your understanding . No matter where I am , I know that I still have someone whom I can count on . Hey , 24-7 on call ain’t an easy task weih ~ My life that im going through now really proves that u’d put in alot of effort n it make a different , a lot sometimes . Sometimes I even wonder , why do we always ended up in Redbox one ? Aiyah *laugh* Eh lou poh u know or not , y we so ‘so hai ‘ one ? Aiyer … now only I know why god create u n me , to wrack the world man ~! We’re fated together forever de ~ Hahaha , u cannot runaway from me ( ngiak ngiak ngiak ) Wei , why we always laugh non stop when we’re together one , weih ah , why ah ? U begin to love ur job eih , wei , fast lah ~ yes yes ~ hehehe ( u guys wont understand what we’re writing coz haha ~ its our SH language ) She’s a very very good singer eih , come come text her n she’ll ended up with u in redbox (waiseh ~! ) yes , I’ll probably be there with u too … we’re unseparatable ~! WUahahahaha ~ Eih , y u always come my house n break my things one ? U cannot find the hole ? Nah , there lah ~ Hahaha ~ My oh my , my dearest lou poh , u’re the best n the sweetest . From the day we came down to kl together n start over our life , hugging together in Petaling street crying ( wah sai ) Aih , shit , u still remember anot ? Until the day we go shopping here n there , having so many same same things , having so many same same stories , same same underwear ( WAH ) , same same experience ( WHAT THE DUT ~! ) , hahaha , always laugh at ourselves , eh nonono , always laugh at yourself ( Wuahaha ) ok lah , I laugh u u laugh me ok ( An Yong Eh Sai Ah ? ) Actually she’s beside me when im half way writing this paragraph of her …But I wanna tell you ( Eh , dun finish my sugus lah weih , what am I suppose to eat later ? ) ok , continue , I wanna tell you ( Yes , Hai Yan ) that u’re the bestestestestestestestestestest ( Ashma , chiak lat ) friend ( Yes , Lou Poh Dai Yan ) I’d ever have =~~~~~~~~~~~( ( Damn Kam Thung ) Muah Muah Muah
My Beloved Geng ( Brian , William , Jesus , Leslie , Calvin , Shaun , Chee Yang , Andy , Tiffany )
Thanks for all your time , effort , forgiveness n understanding . You guys always believed in me in all the ways n everything I do . Helped n accompanied me along the way down my path . Without me noticing it has been a pretty cool 5 months now , although to be precise just for 4 months , this one month of silence changed a lot of things , both ways . It’s sad how it became but some things are eternal … The trust n believe I had in u guys are superb . No matter what’s the outcome , the same saying still goes - Be careful ~! u guys are dear . Not worth to be outta sight , get what I mean ~ You’re the best guy group I’d ever had =) Those party , the gathering , the surprises , Hey , Calvin ! I still remember the puzzle leh ~! And Brian , now im very friendly to the phone already =) but Victoria still remain untouched … The tortoise I duno u chuck where already . William , u’re the man ! Go Go Go ~! God bless u that u’ll get everything u want very very soon . Jesus , Shh … will come one , very fast very fast , u boleh ~ haha ~! Leslie , the caretaker … with u around , everyone’ll be just perfectly fine =) Shaun , u’re always the quiet quiet boy so sweet sweet de ha ~ good good , mui mui zai like like =) U’re a good person in heart … Chee Yang , wei once u touch forever ARE ONE ah , hahaha , cham loh ~ how how ? Tiffany , im very happy seeing u back in line smiling already . Ema is taking care of u hah ~ Must take care of her for me also n i know u already did =) U’re one amazing girl u know that . SKL , our mark mark yah ~ Andy , now kaya already , good good , one day must belanja me eat … No matter how fast time flies , how many things happened , u’re the first n ever group of guys that i am so comfortable being with … everything that u guys have done meant so much to me n will be kept in my heart forever … our stories , unbelievablely crazy ~ Wuahahaha . Dont worry , secrets will be kept , can still kau lui one , no prob , we go kau together gether !

( All Guys Especially : Nic , Jefferson , Colin , Darren , Jeffrey , Brandon )
( All Girls Especially : Lou Poh , Princess , Vivian , Ainsley , Angie ) And to all my dearest friends who knows me ,
Thanks for believing me in every way n everything that i do … All the ups n downs , few of YOU r there for me , standing , eh no , sitting side by side in a big big group teman-ing me in mamaks ( aiyah ) Hehe , n always end up mamak again … ( aisheh ) Haha ~ Sorry lah , wait until IT’S opened then i treat u guys a free meal k ? Muahahaha ( ding dong ! ) Thanks for being a one stop 7-11 station for me , it helps preventing me from going to the cuckoo bird stage =) Aih , what to do … life pranks alot ~ U know i know lah … Whenever i need ambulance u guys will carry ur thongs n rush to me , wah lau eh , so kam thung * sob sob* Aih , such a ma fan also u can stand , pui fuk pui fuk ~ (sleng sleng) Yo maN ! i lap u mAn ~ You know whAt im sAy’in ~ haha ~ Really , from the bottom of mAh hArt , really really thank you for being there … really really thank you <– really REALLY de ~ Wanna say u people ah , long long story loh . Flooding ur phone with my bla bla bla lah u also didn’t report flood at ur place to police , didn’t reply ur sms summore u keep sending then i reply weeks later also u not angry ( if me i give up <– i must learn from u weih Kam Ba Teh ) , Helping me get ticket lah , book place lah , accompany me go buy stuff lah ( n choose for me somemore fui yoh ! <– keng weih ) , my cow drop into my toilet bowl also u come to rescue lah ~ ( from seremban to kl also boleh WAHHHH ) FU la Mak very yi hei Ha , i like i like ( nod nod nod ) Good Good , my good good Heng Dai Ah ~ Mmm , Mmm , i will remember this Heng Dai one ~ Go ur place makan ALL free ( calculator dut dut dut one year i can save hmm … alot also weih , can buy kancil ) Always worry that i stay home become sot sot n try to bring me go sedut some poluted air outside ( good heng dai ) tap tap chest , Hou Yeh , i Salute kao kao , very very impress , proven still got good man outside for my girlfriends ~ ( girls , go grab grab grab ) i dun charge u introduction fee one .
Thanks for checking up on me although sometimes i didn’t reply but u never disconnect our line =) It’s my bad n im sorry , but it doesn’t mean that i ignore or stopped everything there . I remember u DID contact me , i do =) No matter how long we didn’t contact each other , u still call or sms to make sure that im still in one piece . You girls are darlingZ ~ Muah Muah Muah ~ I can save a kontena of SKll seing ur warm warm sms =) ( close eyes eyes n feel the love ) Wah , felt like going naked weih ~ Muah , u girls are bling bling u know that =) The world shine coz of you =) YOU know who u are … thanks for everything =)
To all the coming-soon friend of mine ,
Thanks for taking your time messaging me telling what ppl told u or what u’ve heard from ppl about me . Im truly grateful for everything that u’ve done. Coz from no where , u have faith in me … u r my precious friend =) I believe that no matter how bad it seemed to be somehow u believe in urself , n each second that u took to keep in touch with me means alot … and each n everyone of u are sincere … and for that sincerity , i humblely thank u here … now …
Love ,
Leng Yein
ps :
I notice alot of u switched ur page to secretive mode , hmm … good good …
My first friend acc had been suspended coz someone took over it , aih … to let u girls know how much i love u , i actually spent more than 24 hours paste n cut n create this new Friends getaround account for US =)
add up dears ~ …… ur pic might be in =) hehe

Sunday, June 09, 2013

What i learn in a year

Its the end of my new life,new environment,new line,new friends,new home,new challenges,great old 2006 ~! A soon to come new life,new challenges,new friends,new problems … see , one thing about life is,it’s like a donut, like i always tells my frens,it goes around…
U either hate it,or the other way round,like it,but when u happen to understand it,u gonna face it regardless of u liking or hating it.Sad or happy,up or down,its totally up to u urself.there’s never a need to regret,put it this way to feel better,u learn from what u call mistakes.Hey,we’re young eh,no?then y r u still playing friendster? See ?
2006 leaves a great impact n experiences in my life,i’ll never forget this year … everything changes,my life,my job,my views… but im happy tat for everything that had happen in such sudden,i now ended up having my own life here - right in the center of KL . im happy , n i want all of u to be happy too …
Its been months since i last wrote my blog , im really thankful whenever i saw messages regarding my bloggging . Im aint famous blogger , but thanks to YOU , who took ur time reading each n every letter that i type .
Met alot of girls n left them my number , telling me problems from boyfriends to family to everything , surgery , medication , lifestyle … its good to gather together n talk , i love talking … i learn alot from them , reminding myself of my own problems , my past experience , n never forgets how it became n changed things all over , how good n bad times r … ppl always ask me to forget the past, but im like a rock i never tolerate this advice . coz i love to remember every single details so tat i’ll learn from it n carry a better view walking down my path ….
Im happy tat i’ve met almost every new fren of mine n find them good ppl . Back in my hometown , most of the ppl who knows me (by name) coz i grew up there love to backstab alot , try to ask ur frens in kuantan of me , u’ll know what i mean . as though they’re my twins ,, they even can tell u things about me which even me myself doesnt know that . haha ~ they are so cute , i wonder if the circus would love to hire them … clown ~! but all my new frens here , yes ‘YOU’ ~! they are so sincere , everyone is so humble , so down to earth , so patient . And one very important quality , they are very understanding . I love people who respects others …. n i find alot of people in town who actually cares for others , the elderly , the needy , the down ones with problems …
I’ve met different walks of life n i notice a very big difference n i simplified all of them n class them into 2 kinds . The End & The Forever .
People who try to hard to impress me saying how rich how famous how many ppl call them how many ppl like them what present or message they get from girls how busy they are how high class they are how successful they are how knowledgeble they are how good they are how kind they are how many house they have what car they drive how many famous ppl they know how big their house r how fast they drift their carcar how cheap this girl is how expensive his watch is when they r gonna get married how many choices of girls they have how many annoying girls texting them how sweet they are to their Ex’s when did they last made out when did he last text or call a girl n when did i actually tell u im interested in all of these above ? Come on , u think by telling me how cheap this girl is texting u impresses me ? Chill out man , why on earth is that girl KEEP texting u IF u didnt text her some sweet things beforehand . u think we’re stupid ? Respect the girls man , u know what im saying ? If i keep telling me the girls r annoying , please remind urself that i’ll not text u coz u might show this to other girls telling them the same thing too . Turn it around , ur gf doesnt want the cute guy overthere to know she’s attached.U text her saying u miss ur baby so much,she show ur sms to the cute guy,u’re dumbo,u dont know.How’s that?Sweet ? This is what u r doing lah brother ~ Im a pain in ur butt yes surely i agree , but its an advice , things r going around babe , one day it’ll U-turn n hit u baqck right in front of ur pretty face SMACK!!!
U r a listener n a talker , u know when to stop when to pull out a tissue when to get other a ketchup when to get the bill when to stop n look whether there’s car coming from right or left when is the time to stop texting the girls when is the time to call up n ask whether we’re doing fine when is the best time to cheer us up when is the time to say u r not free coz u have to go n get a christmas card for us when is the time u finish fixing ur carcar n fetch us for mamak when is ur girlfriend coming back n we’ll go swimming together how many true friends u have in a group how many days u didnt call ur mum n ask how she is how many hours u slept how free u r now n how helpful u can be how patient u r and above all , just do everything that u SHOULD do, we’ll do the rest from there … thanks for everything
The fact of THE W’s :
THE FOREVER - Where(the right place), When(the right time), hoW(the right way), What(the right thing), Who(the right click)
THE END - those smart ones who goes W the way they thought it is WE(tat’s never we until WE say it),WANT(what about what We want?),WOMEN(WE r not ur toy),bmW(a kancil can get me to the same destination too),Wisky & Wine (come on la brother,this is never a good excuse to get naughty),Whistle(i pity ur mum coz her baby doesnt know how to respect women),WHY(simple , because WE dont like u), WOW(love the tits? Want me to smack that on ur face till u choke n die,i’ll b likely to do that if ensure that u’ll really die after i do it,my pleasure)
Lessons learned in year 2006 n will b brought forward to year 2007 :
Independant - When u lost everything,u left YOURSELF to fill up missing pieces
Cherish - Heartbreak if THEY never cherish u,its fine,dont b the same like THEM,Do it differently
Respect - Shut up,think,salute,learn n smile,there’s always a lesson to b learn from that someone
Positive - There’s always 2 sides,black n white.Hey,ur life will not b Grey forever lah ~ Think PINK ?
Grateful - Never forget ppl who helped u,even a small favour,be thankful,they’re LITTLE BABY GOD
Appreciate - Ppl dont owe u nothing to lend a hand eh ? So ?
Remember - Ppl who pins u to death or carry u up.Never forgive urself for forgetting either one of them
Care-Less - Their parents didnt educate them the right way,but urs did.So kindly forgive their stupidity
Care-More - Sometimes somethings might even mean nothing at all to u,but it might be so much to them
Step Out - Step aside,its like a watching a movie,scan the details.Step back in.Everything’ll b clear now
Switch - Dont understand why r things going like this?Imagine u r the other party,this way,u’ll know why
Smile - It doesnt cost u a cent,but it has the power to open up the world to u
Time - Every second is precious,Grab every possibilities n live life to the fullest.u cant go back again
Moody - Laugh when u r happy,Cry when u r sad.Hey,u have a heart,rite? U wont get summoned
Learn - U dont have to make mistakes to learn,take others’ mistakes as ur lessons in life,safer this way
Give - A small favour might turned out to b ur future staircase or at least , a ladder
Talk - If u cant find a nice thing to say about someone,dont say anything…rumours starts here !
People - Catagorize them.Give priority to the special ones or they’ll not b special anymore
Think - Dont listen to what majority says.Sit,calm,quiet,feel,relax,recall n do the math
Party - Loose weight,sleeves,depths,length but never loose urself.Know what u r doing.Respect urself
Test - Analyse all data.Listen.No one can get pass ur lie-detection program
Truth - Trust only what u’ve experienced,not what u heard/saw.Things might not b the way it seemed 2b
Help - U’re not the cupid,stop involving urself in other couples problem.Wanna break up,break la~!
Daring - If u dare to do it,dare to admit it. If not, dont do it lah ~
Right / Wrong - There’s never an answer to this.Look n check at all sides all the time.Chill man ~
Bad girls - U dont need them!Lagi dun need to cry n b sad.Karma does exists
Bad boys - When u r rich but old n dying,i’ll b praying for u that u have a good nurse by ur hospital bed =)
Good girls - They have alot to learn from each other,coloring our life n shines the way through
Good guys - I learn alot from them the reason behind the war of opposite sex,n debate ! Haha
Shhh - If that’s ur darkest secret n u duwan anyone to know,dont tell anyone,dont blame others when it leaks,coz u r the one who let it out in the first place
Well , i guess this would probably be my last blog for this year now coz im flying off again.To every beautiful people in this room,may all your best wishes come true n may all the best things in life are shared … May all the days ahead comes with good chances n changes n may all of you stays pink of health all the time ~!

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

darkest secret ...

Simple , if u wan2 to do something , no one can force u coz it is ur choice in the end , but if u think the choice that u made will cheate havoc or gossips that u can handle , do not do it then and regret later … i live my own life , didnt hurt urs … coz like it or not it is my life , not yours … i wont reveal ur secrets , only mine which i dont actually agree on these are consider secrets as i dont have any . Whatever u hear about below was never secrets , if u heard about it , it MUST HAVE started it because i told YOU … and YOU tell ppl , and yada yada yada … Anyway , it is my right , u cant sue me for telling ppl what my life was all about … and u know why am i telling , coz YOU ask & this is ur answer …
For the 3 year plus in friendster , I’ve received a lot of questions regarding my business & my personal life . I don’t want to repeat things over and over again so im gonna post this up & answer the same question . I have nothing to hide from u as this is not bout breaking the laws , I have nothing to lose coz if u dont like what i did which doesnt hurt u , it is ur life , ur choice , and i am at no right to brainwash u … if I dare to do it , I dare to admit it . If I say yes , it is a Yes . And if I said no , it’s is certainly a No .
My Businesses :
I wont elaborate on this. Im not that kinda person who goes everywhere telling ppl as though im an entrepreneur … aiyoh , Beh Tahan Nia. Hello , I am just trying to have a life here. Stop questioning me,I hate it ok. If u don’t know how I made it then it simply proves that u r not a sincere friend coz people who knows me, know - my life suck ~ but in a way , sincere friends like YOU popped up & helped me along the way … and ended up like this … Yes, everything that i am today … exist because of YOU (only for sincere ppl la ) … -end-
Ps : All of u r invited to my mamak’s opening around September … if u’d already added me up, kindly keep an eye on the bulletins … Everyone is invited , it’ll be fun ~
Plastic Surgery :
Everyone knows that I did boob lifting , nose job & dimple surgery . Why ? Coz whenever they say ‘ hey I wish I have that boob ‘ and I’ll reply ‘ cheh , it’s fake one ‘ . Girls , even Guys , if u r my real life friend u know lah … till everyone around me tells me ‘ wei , dont go around telling ppl lah’ then i will tell them ‘ aiyoh , if i dont wanna answer them, they think im lansi . If i answer them , they’ll ask me the price coz they wanna do also’ … so , if u r so interested in knowing , why cant i tell . think . but when i tell , u help me free-advertising around , i wanna thank u coz u make me wanna start a plastic surgery one-stop station . HaHaHa ~
Ok , skip skip skip . Plastic surgery is not good for u as it will defect ur body system , u gotta take your own risk . If ur job requires u to do so , let the company pay for you & search for the best & take the lowest risk . Yes , there are still risks … It’s not original so don’t expect it’ll be the same darling .
First, its in my family gene that me & my lil sister have big boobies . So , stop asking why i have big boobs originally even before the lifting … coz I asked my mum so many times & she asked me to ask my grandma so Okay , skip skip skip.
First lessons : Big boobies will sag, yes, because of gravitivity. I don’t like sagging boob so I decide to do it, never because of my profession, fully on my own preference. If u don’t like it, go spend money and do it. Stop complaining. If u like it, message me and I’ll tell u more about it. Mine has no implant , simply just muscles stitching. Second : My nose. Aiyoh , I still can feel my nose la for Christ sake ~ No it wont fall off like Michael Jackson’s lah … tsk tsk tsk … The Process : Just a cut beside & they’ll stuff a bone-like thing in , the surgery – less than 1 hour and I can go shopping oledi. Yes, I witness the whole process coz I requested. Why i did my nose : Originally my nose is doing fine thank you but i am a chinese so i have flat nose lah then I prefer a taller one so i went & get it done loh , simple ~ But it’s my nose not urs so it’s my right and i didn’t offend u coz it’s not tall enough to hide KLCC from ur view la , My GOD ~ . Third : My dimple. Yes , dimple can be done in less than an hour of work. I am not dosed to sleep so this is the second surgery I undergo by witnessing the whole process & trust me it was fun ~ Just by three stitching at each side & the string will break lose by a month & the result - 3 years & yes , if u wanna maintain u gotta pay & do it again . Yes , u gotta pay to do it again. There’s no lifetime warranty on dimple ( if u happen to know one , please tell me Wakakakaka )
Don’t ask me how much all these costs . Prices differs from different countries . Yes , I went all over the world for it . Hey , I love traveling . It’s my money & don’t u dare question how I got it , I work kay … if u think I have rich man all over the place PAU’ing me then *shout* go get urself one ~ Man I tell u , you gotta be crazy . U know why ? We’re a family la ~ YOUR FATHER gave me money hahaha ~! *laugh rolling on the floor* Get that my dear ? Respect yourself , regardless of man or woman they WORK HARD FOR THEIR LIFE . Live with that or die with it ~ How many ladies around u who doesn’t work ends up happy ? And there again , think … U are a woman , we are your kind too … Does it help degrading ur own kind when others doesnt offend u ?
Dinner Jobs :
More than 70% of the models u see in papers , magazines & events deals with it. U get paid having ur dinner with people. Job scope, u attend a dinner with other girls depending on how many girls the agent requires , u sit down & open ur mouth & eat . But u get paid for it . Celebrities & Artists are doing that too for decades . The only thing that is different is the price u’re paid for . No , it is not HOOKING AROUND . Yes , some girls do hook after dinner but that is their choice . Is hooker not a human ? Respect that ok ? If it doesn’t hurt u , u have no right on other’s life . No questions asked , if they wanna do that , who are u to question them ? It is by all mean their life … So , whoever is reading this now , if u r in dinnerjob line too , don’t backstab other girls just to protect urself . It is very selfish . If I ever get to know that u r backstabbing other girls who does it & praising & swearing that u will never do that , come on , it is just a dinner , what r u trying to prove ? u’re so guai guai ah ? If u r not in this line or WAS in this line before how in the world would u KNOW that who or who or who is in ah ? U think we’re stupid & never thought of that point ? Before u even get to ur last sentence the wise ones already degreaded u totally , because u have no respect for others & that u r so selfish … u try to bring others down by draggin urself up , but if u r that good , u dont even need to promote urself … If u just play ur part , no one will tell anyone u’re in it coz 99.9% of the girls who’re doing this never reveals to anyone coz they’re afraid that ppl will have a different perception on them.
I started doing this last year coz something happened and I needed a big sum of cash. To my friends , sorry that I only tells u after I’ve been tru it all but im an aries , I don’t beg ppl . U know me *big big smile* Yes I run my business & I have money but I need not explain further on this issue why do i still need to get extra money by doing this. My friends know the reason behind that . I stopped dinnerjobs long time ago coz I’ve settled all the debts which is not my problem *darn but I have to do it* & carry on my life , yes , back on track straightaway coz I know what im doing & for what purpose .
Girls , if u r new in this line , be mind strong . Know what u r doing & what kind of people are u dealing with . Don’t be innocent , u can only pretend to … Don’t get influenced , it is ur choice. Whatever u do , be clear on ur purpose , remember your reason & never forget ur principle. No mater what ur friends says about u , heck them . come on , r they gonna help u ? If not , then ask them to shut up coz u r left with ur self in the battle . If they still bug u , ask them to help u , i bet they’ll runaway faster than the speed of roadrunner … But if u had a hard time going tru this , write to me k . Jie will help u tru all … I promise ~
People who ONLY understand what dinnerjob is all about after reading this , stop degrading the girls , it is a clean job & I am not ashame of admitting it . Not proudly , but honestly … Sometimes in life , it is hard to understand how tough certain chapter can be … u r alone … not been left by others , but u choose to overcome the obstacles alone … and this … is life … coz when u r down with nothing … u r down with no one … (except YOU , my sincere frens who kept supporting me mentally tru friendster & im grateful … )
Message to all of you …
If u ever looked down on someone just because they are doing something which u think u couldn’t accept , then help them … lead them back on track again . But If u cant , it means that u r not even capable of helping them coz u dunno what to do with them , then do not look down on them … They are fighting for their life all by themselves , just like u and me … have u no heart ? Why if ur place was switched … what would u do ? If u have a solution , then share with them … Get my point ? Think …
Quotes for all of you :
Everyone takes on different tracks walking down their life … Just because they are not in the same road as you doesn’t mean that they are lost …

Friday, June 08, 2012


economy reccesion

What do u think about the economy recession ? Will it be worst throughout d year ? Or does it not affect u at all ? Or did it change alot of things about u, on u ? For me, it did affect my business, but not me, not my life, im a secure person, i always have my plan B. But it did changed my perception on people, on things, on some matters, on life. It did changed some facts, and some facts changed me forever … The power of accurate observation is frequently called cynicism by those who don’t have it. So this is what i think, it’s personal … so it’s my story, my view…
Through my observation on what happened around me :
·9 out of 10 people become more self centered. They rather live a comfort life leaving others to suffer n bear their burdens.
I’ve seen really good people who suffered so much lately and they’ve turned evil. They ran away with cash - their parent’s money, their company’s money, their friend’s money, anything but their own hard earn money. And they left the other party to suffer for sins. Pity those who lived under the shadow they left behind. And those who suffer, swill definitely suffer longer than the sinner himself. Karma is like a donut, and u r not letting ur finger go. When u take d last bite, all u can taste is the bite on ur own finger. Beware … have a heart ~
·Money overshadowed one’s life and took away most of the things… their conceit, their trust, their dignity, their manhood, their reputation, their friendship, their smile, their happiness, their relationship, their perfection
At the edge of things we often see the true colour of one’s face right in front of our eyes, and their true behavior distinguished the truth. And we shall easily see who’s who, which’s which, and what’s what. Differentiate n calm urself down. This is a good time that u should be composed and accept the disenchantment. Remember, if everyone was what we thought they are, we would’ve been god ~ It is hard to accept one whom we’d always kept close to our hearts, the trust, the respect, the gratitude and the love we have for them and it turned around so quickly. Keep it to urself, need not feel miserable. The second u know that u could handle the situation better, u r keeping up better than they do. Just let them be, be urself too ~
·More con man and scam company, constructing society downfalls n leap of crimes n cheats
Scams were all over the place. Reload machines, water refill machines, retailing scams, frauds, fast money schemes, Oh ~ u just cant finish writing the list down. When there is a threat, everyone started to do things with little contemplation and overlooked the risk that they are taking. But when things surfaced after awhile n matter got out of hand n financial got worst, most of the people will seek for even more dangerous path for fast money. We can only heard n see that much, we couldn’t help in this case but to give advice. But 9 outta 10 wouldn’t want our advise. Coz everybody only believes in themselves n nobody else. Everybody is the same when u r at the boundary of losing. So just watch, and try not to be like them. Read the newspapers, it should help and prevent u from falling into traps and scams, being one of the victim.
·Living in dreamland
When some of the hardworking people are working 2 jobs a day, some others are still sitting there doing nothing n hoping that cash would just fall and rain on them. They refuse to accept the reality, refuse to believe that their life is not going to be as good as it used to be. They still wanna have their the way it was before, spending and enjoying, taking things easy, afraid that people would look down on them once they see the changes in their lifestyle, on their spending. Living in their dream world, refused to accept the truth and move forward n set their feet on the ground, it is pitiful. But it is also a good time to reflect on urself, what u did, why did it happen, and what u should do and prevent it from happening again. Always plan ahead… always have a plan B. And better still, a plan C too.
·The rise of rivalry and condemnation
When one fall, one will automatically be a step above them. This is a time when a huge differences can easily be spotted among two different individuals. Comparison will take place, rivalry come to pass, once an adore can easily turn to abhorrence, envy and jealousy arise among the groups and everyone will start to fight/mouth fight against each other to prove that they are better. Gossips and backstabbing is common. A curser will curse even more just to show their displeasure and annoyance looking at those who are happy. U r either the one who had to save up, or the one who still go on spending~ But either one, no one cares. If ur life is about everything, just remember that their lives too. U r not that important. So save up ur time n do something meaningful other than wasting it on backstabbing others who does well. It only shows that u r going down faster than u think. A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control. Be wise when choosing which side u wanna be.
·Which is more important in d end of the day - Career or Happiness ?
The two most important requirements for major success are: first, being in the right place at the right time, and second, doing something about it. But i do believe that the very purpose of our life is to seek happiness. That is clear. Whether one believes in religion or not, whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we all are seeking something better in life. So, I think, the very motion of our life is towards happiness… When the time is tough, never let ur problems shadows the one that u love. When u lose them, u lost the most important thing that money can never even buy.
·Learn to play by the rules
There’s a case, I have a friend who were a model, so my friends were trying to be a good friend and kept forwarding her jobs but she held her nose so high n told my friend off ‘ Oh, didn’t u know? Im a full time model now, i don’t do cheap jobs and low class events.’ And outta no where, yesterday, she suddenly popped up again n called my friend asking her for any kind of payment job, as long as there is a job. This is a lesson to learn - Be nice to people on your way up because you will meet them on your way down.
·It’s so hard to play good people. So, lets just be below-average~
Some of us had lived our lives long enough to help alot of people. But most of them will never remember us when they’re outta trouble. And will only remember us when they got into trouble again. Lately, i got calls from long lost friends. Out of no where they called to borrow money, to meet me up, to have a chat, but it’s all n all about lending money. This is a good question, even if u have it, will u give it to them ? I used to have a habit of not knowing when to stop and not knowing when to say ‘NO’. But i soon learned that people is not treating us as friends, but they are using us as an ATM, worst – an idiot. I’d borrowed money, given my friends my bags, my stuffs, the brands, shelter, a ride, whatever u call it. They nvr greet u during festive seasons or on special dates, they never send u regards, they never calls u up on normal days just to see how u r doing right now, they never remember ur birthday, worst, they dun even know ur name ~ Giving out branded bags n clothes aren’t that bad, worst i still can treat it as though ppl helping me to clear my junk. But when u borrow money to someone n they don’t intend to return, it’s not about the money at all, it is about losing a friend forever. They avoid ur calls, they never return ur smses, they never wanna bump into u… Some were afraid that others would know about the money n they start to turn their back on u. They changed, and start treating u like an enemy. Saying heartbreaking things to ur friends so that they save their pride in front of the public. So hows that for playing good guy ? My Chinese sayings ‘ Hou Yan Nan Zou’ ah ~ So, my new policy is – NO CASH NO TALK in business, n DUN BORROW MONEY FROM ME in friendship. Aduh ~ What happen to the world nowadays ? sweat ~
·Save up. Don’t regret when it’s too late
You might be well off some time ago and u’d never thought that anything would happen and u had to use ur back up fund. But why if u’d used it all up n there’s nothing left to spend ? Never have the thinking that u always have to be better off than ur friends. When u see that they have 1 LV, u dig ur wallet and get 1 too. And when u see that they have 2, u went and buy 3. But when ur bank is empty n they’d bought the whole collection back, u have to sell ur 3 bags just to pay the taxi. No more Starhill n Pavilion for u, even worst, no more Sg.Wang. So why show off when the payoff is just for the price of ur pride ? Know ur limits. When ur friends have it n they flaunt it, it doesn’t mean that u have to have it too. Class n lifestyle is just a state of mind. Everyone has it no matter who they are. It’s just that the rate is different. U might not have a branded bag, but u might have something which a well off person would always longed to have. So the admiration goes both ways. It doesn’t have to always be a competition among ur friends, or ended up being compared, or living ur life all on dead objects and creating rivalry wherever u go. Secure ur future. That is what more important for you. If u wanna be the best, learn to maintain n balance d quality of ur life. Then u can really be the best lo ~
·Kiasu, Kiasi
You either get ur feet on the ground and work very hard ; or can still allow urself to keep on spending until the well dries up and then think about it later. U’ve watched enough movies. So it is time to reflect on urself. Sit down n take some time off for urself. Think deep of what u want, what u need, what u don’t want and set a target for urself n then go for it. It is new year. Let us have a chance to fix our fault and start it new again… Let us get it right…
·Have a heart
As for those who’re financially unshuddered, visit an orphanage today. Visit the old folk’s home. Visit those of u love. Donate. Adopt a pet or do something meaningful. Give some love, care and help. Have a happy heart ~ If u need the numbers of certain centre or outlet, tell me. I’ll be happy to forward it to you. May god bless u always …
Though alot of things are happening around the world right now, I am thankful that I’ve had my wonderful time, but this wasn’t it. I hope that u’ve found what u’re looking for in life. Especially at this point of time when the world is turning n changing at such high speed. Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt represents determinism; and the way you play is absolutely free will. So play it well, and take full responsible on the end results. When u lose the game, it doesn’t mean that u’ll lose everything. U can lose the battle, but never lose the war.
Happy Chinese New Year and may ur year be filled with prosperity, luck, joy and ONG ONG ONG ah ~
Love Always … Leng Yein

Thanks for writing to me

I had received alot of appreciation messages regarding my blogs and captions . I would like to take this opportunity to thank all these beautiful people for taking their precious time writing to me typing every single letter sincerely especially the girls who attached their message with their numbers at the bottom and the girls who looked up on me as their role model n inspiration . To be frank im shocked for messages like this showering me from girls coz most of the time girls wont write to girls saying nice things . Girls , thanks for everything . Without u girls , my world wouldn’t be as beautiful and i mean it …
Every captions of mine has their own meaning and story behind … It has been sometime every since i wrote my last blog coz i had been writing my diary everyday instead . I’ll never write something for fun and if i were to choose to do it i rather not writing anything at all … so when i write , i REALLY write …  i’ll sit down for hours in my home sweet home of mine and jot every letter down , words by words … And very word that i say means alot to me … and hope that my story will help you people in your life … coz it does to mine …

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Our 8th Wonders of The World - Leng Yein

Our 8th Wonders of The World - Leng Yein

Great Pyramid of Giza is well known for the Unique Creation. And here our dearest Leng Yein is also one of the most unique creation God had ever created.  Her personality , fame , success  , style and etc etc is all unique in her own way. We called it the Leng Yein way. To some she might be a Queen and yes inside the Great Pyramid of Giza there a Queen Chamber inside it.

Then we have the Hanging Gardens of Babylon. This garden is so beautiful. They are sometimes called the Hanging Gardens of Semiramis (in reference to the legendary Queen Semiramis).  Leng Yein is our Legendary Queen Leng Yein in all our heart as well. And she is surely as beautiful as the Hanging Gardens of Babylon.

We also have the Statue of Zeus at Olmpia. Zeus is the leader of God. Leng Yein is a leader that motivate , move and inspire almost everybody around her. Is a symbol of Strength and Power. And so far I do not know any lady or women is as Strong as she is. One of Leng Yein strongest trait is her Strength !

Next we have the Temple of Artemis. Is also known as the Temple of Diana, was a Greek temple dedicated to a goddess Greeks. Yes. Most of us worship or I would like to use the term admired Leng Yein as who she is. We learn from her. We get inspired and motivated by her. She is like a Goddess that hold so strong on her integrity and life value.

At the same time , we have Mausoleum at Halicarnassus or Tomb of Mausolus. The builder found this place is because he needed a safe city to guard the safety of his citizen. To protect themselves from harm. There many out there who always came to Leng Yein for help. And most of the times she will give her best to help those she is being able to help within her ability and capability. She a good listener. She a good problem solver. She is a great protector to a lot of people before in her life since last time until today without fail.

Then we also have Colossus of Rhodes. It was constructed to celebrate Rhodes' victory over the ruler of Cyprus. Yes. The word victory here define Leng Yein victory from overcoming all odds from her hard life to became who she is today. She is not born with silver spoon. It take a lot of sweats , energy , tears , blood and sacrifice to build a gold spoon by herself. Also a victory over a great love and marriage. We called it the best fairy tale ever but is a reality . A victory as 1 of the most inspiring public figure around. And the list just goes on. Why? Her forehead there already written Victory. There just too many uncountable victories in her life.

The Lighthouse of Alexandria, also known as the Pharos of Alexandria , was a tower built between 280 and 247 BC on the island of Pharos at Alexandria, Egypt. Its purpose was to guide sailors into the harbour at night time. From all those things and trait I wrote above. If Leng Yein is not going to be the light that is going to guide all of us then what else should it be ?

Therefore she is surely our 8th Wonders of The World. The only difference is those are man made but she is self made.

Yee Aun
Your Hamba  

PS : Tuanku Yee Aun ... Thanks for cheering jie up when i was down ... Your article came JUST IN TIME when i was all swollen and bloated and in pain in Korea ... It puts such a big smile on jie's face =~~~~~~~~~~) It meant so much to jie ... Thanks for ALWAYS, AND ALWAYS being such a sweet friend to jie ... A brother ... =~~~~~~~~~~~) You are the sweetest =)

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Leng Yein - Plastic Surgery sponsored by Lafa, as their Korea-Malaysia Endorsed Ambassador & New Face =)

Leng Yein = Plastic Surgery ?

Is she pretty or beautiful because of who she is or because of plastic surgery ?

Very simple. She became one of the Miss Malaysia Finalist before or after her surgery? The answer is before. So is already pretty and have her own beauty even before she did any surgery.

Is she famous because of surgery?

In this world by statistics thousands of people doing surgery but only how little out of so many only became famous after they do their surgery ?

Is she fake?

How do u define fake ?

Person A : Did surgery. Feel happy and comfortable of themselves. Proud and honest to admit and tell the whole world they did surgery.

Person B : Did surgery. Dare not admit. Acting as if they are not.

Person C : Dint do surgery. Dint feel comfortable , confidence and keep complaining and inferior about their looks and asset. Cheating their own internal feelings that they are original but faking their self inferior outside.

Leng Yein is PERSON A. Some might argue person C is not fake. Well. That subjective. Depends on how each individual view on it.

Okay. Personally plastic surgery for me is suitable for those who change their face entirely. A face which is already not their face.

For me if you people know Leng Yein. Is her same face. She just perfect and modified certain feature only.
For me I would like to use the word Modification for Leng Yein than Plastic Surgery.

She already as beautiful as Lamborghini. She modified certain parts of the car to looks even better.

She not like those ordinary proton car that people modified to looks like a EVO or Lancer. The original design of Proton changed completely !

That is the differences. In fact a HUGE difference.


By : Shen Yee Aun ...

Saturday, May 28, 2011

What's winning ... and what's losing ?

I believe that the true test of character is not how much we know how to do , but how we behave when we don’t know what to do. There’s nothing such as a certain right or wrong , it solely depends on how u want to put it and let it be … does right or wrong really matters anyway ? What do u earn from winning ? Is it worth the part that you’re losing ?

When you’re at the most downside of your life, u tend to see things clearer. Coz each move u make mean so much , so much more than the same move u take during normal days. It can be the same topic , the same discussion , the same joke , the same thoughts , regardless of whether it’s u or others , one wont understand until we’re left alone n stuck in the situation .

No matter what other says , no matter what other does doesn’t seemed to bother or matters to u anymore. Coz the decision that u make lies on nobody else in the world but u … n the pain that u bear , gosh , makes u felt so heartless … dying ? It doesnt matters anymore , my heart dies the second the decision was made final … it’ll be alright soon ? i dont think so . This incident breaks me apart … For these years of my life , i never felt so torn before . I know i could never mend all the pieces back together , it was never meant to be mended … it were never to be accepted … wasn’t given a slight chance to , im sorry , im so so sorry … God ~

I felt as though i have no heart … where have all the love gone ? For all my life i’ve been loving everyone else around me , but why is it so different this time . I am so lost … this is the best for everyone ? But what about me ? What about … oh my god , where is all the love ? Where is justice n fairness ? What about my life ? What about how i feel ? What about my dream ? I really break apart n fall this time , deep n hard …

God bless all of you …

May you find peace , love & care … I will never forget you … never … I Love You so much … so so much … im so sorry … so very sorry …

Leng Yein

Saturday, October 02, 2010

A blog from my dear friend .. Star Aun ...

By : Shen Yee Aun – The Handsome Guy With A Kind Heart

Journey Towards A Legendary  10 . 10 . 10
A marathon journey of a great Queen
A journey that is never an easy path to walk
With not born with a pair of Golden shoe
She walked with barefoot
She walked her first step
A step that not many people dare to take
A step without knowing exactly where she will be heading
As the journey goes she walked on Fire
Whatever that comes along her way she still right there walking
Persistence and determine
Strong and powerful
Solid and hard
Against all odds
Then she started to climb a mountain
When the whole world is still there hoping for her to fall
She climbed up much higher
People below trying to pull her legs
People above trying to push her down
She injured but then healed and went up even higher
Along the journey she met a Man
A Man that is predestine to be a King
A Man that is there for her
A Man that is a Man in her Life
God Love them
God Bless Them
Baby Dinasour is born when she is still a Virgin
Just like Mother Mary gave birth to Jesus Christ
Then the history of 09 . 09 . 09 begin
A day where every women of earth is hoping for
A day where every women of earth is wishing for
A day where every women of earth is craving for
She the princess of the entire 09 . 09 . 09 in the whole Universe
Soon this Men is going to hold her hand
Together they climbed the mountain
With Baby Dinasour
Predestine to be a Prince of the Univers
They are reaching soon
Astrology predicted on 10 . 10 . 10
They will finally manage to be at the top of the mountain
That is the day
When she officially being the Queen of the Universe
A new King and Prince is Born
The whole world share the joy and laughter
Ps : Thanks Star Aun ~ Jie love it soooooo much =) xoxo It is sooooo sweet !!! AwwWWwWwwWW ~

Sunday, August 01, 2010

The Birth of my baby Little Dinosaur ... (The very first three months)

Hello to all the zai zai lui lui reading this =) Hope that your day is fine yesterday, and will be good too, today. 

The weather is crazy. So hot but glad it's not humid or else it'll be like *$)%(#^!@#* already. I only slept merely 4 hours @_@ and im up early in the morning. (Gosh, i slept 'early' too. ) Rushing myself out to finish the task leftover by yesterday *caused by the sudden strike of feeling to start blogging*. Duh ! Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ Ka yao ~ I have a feeling that i had to prepare myself for some sleepless nights already ~

Hmm ... What should i write leh ? I've been thinking and considering and wondering for 30 minutes ... Running to toilet, to the kitchen, to my bed, lying there for awhile and back to my laptop, i still can't figure out what people like you like to read in other people's blog. Any head start ?
OooOOouuuu *hehpiii* Got some head start from Facebook oledi. I'll write the fairytale story *that will probably bore all of you to death* about my baby Little Dinosaur just for Jynee =) Two years ago, when i first posted up Little Dinosaur's picture, alot of strangers messaged me wanting to know what's so special about this little baby of mine because he seemed very very precious to me. Even magazines interview asked me about him but i just pass over coz i wouldn't wanna bore the readers. 

Jynee, because of you oh, jie will pen down Little Dinosaur's biography for the first time after 2 long years =) OoOoOoo ... i love Facebook =) Especially the girls .... they are all so true ... and caring =) Muacks **

So this, is my baby Little Dinosaur's Biography... *breath deep deep in*

I see myself as a disciplined person. Both in my work, and my love life. I met my man in 2006 and we started seeing each other on 11th May 06. Things went well for 2 years but i guess you all know that when Boy meets Girl and Girl meets Boy, they fell in love, went on, carry on, quarrel on, blame on, yadaa yadaa yadaa... My love story, fuhh ! Same loh. Some major problem that had been on and off in both our life just KapusSssh like bom atom falls on our fairytale castle. It happened on the 18th May 2008, approximately a week after we proudly celebrates 2nd year of victory in conquering and taking VVIP places in each other's heart and mind *arms wide open*

I am a fighter in life, not verbally though. I sketched out a story about us in cartoon form. There's 20 pages of it with only two characters - The Dinosaur, and The Lovely Other Dinosaur. I couldn't possibly remember words by words and write it out 100% the original version coz it's 20 pages of cartoons and funny pop out word boxes. But this is what i wrote ... *by page*

Page 1/ Once upon a time in a far far away land, high high up on the mountain, there's a Dinosaur.
Page 2/ The Dinosaur lives in his cold cold ice cage from the outside world. Anyway, it's HIS cage.
Page 3/ There along, came the Lovely Other Dinosaur.
Page 4/ And The Lovely Other Dinosaur melted The Dinosaur's ice cage.
*now that's the starting of our journey together from the day we met* 

From page 5 all the way to page 19, the Dinosaur cartoon story was about A wondering why B at times seemed so near in the eye, but yet so far away in heart. And B too, had been wondering why A at times seemed so near in the eye, but yet so far away in heart... *story goes on* And in the end, they finally see the problem in them. That they only see others in their own eyes, but forgetting to see themselves in others' eyes. That they were rightfully always right about things, about ways of getting things sorted out and others were all wrong from the start. 

Page 20/ The Dinosaur and The Lovely Other Dinosaur lived happily forever and ever ...

The two Dinosaurs character that i drew was hilarious ~ Haha ~ I see when im free im gonna scan it and post it for your pleasure viewing. Hahaha *cant stop laughing* We read it once in awhile, to laugh it over. The book, was like the trailer of the turning point in our life. And our baby Little Dinosaur, is what changes everything. He is our everything.

Here's why. After i finito the little book, i wrapped it up nicely with present wrapping paper and a nice box with some deco on it, and i passed it to him. I guess he brought back home and read it later in the evening.
He came to my house later in the evening with this special Little Dinosaur. He put it on my table and the first thing i said to him was 'What's that?' And at first i thought it looked weird. But i guess what i can say is, that was when i first saw him - my baby Little Dinosaur, and everything was history !

Little Dinosaur was only named a few weeks after he stayed in. The first few weeks was just normal. I have my teddy bears, my bunnies, my flowers and all those dolls lying at the corner. But he was special. He's the only doll that i never chuck aside, like, ever, ever from the first day he was given to me. Maybe because i felt connected to him, abide to the characters in the story that i wrote and drew. 

I hug him to sleep every night. Feeling loved, just like the love given by my man. Little Dinosaur is like the replica of my man. Whenever he's not around, he'll be here with me, giving me the care and that bear hug ... always being there for me ... just like him.

Little Dinosaur doesn't have clothes to wear. Nothing. I dont bring him out, i dont feed him, dress him up, carry him everything, taking pictures of him, creating accounts for him, no. Just, nothing. He lye on my bed and he just stays there until i come home at night and i will hug him to sleep and the days go on. Until ...

The 2nd June 08, i was invited to appear in the opening of the Rainforest Sports Bar in Pavilion just few weeks after Pavilion shopping mall was officially open. At this time, he hadn't got his name yet. I brought along the team and models from my magazine to attend the grand opening together with the celebrities and VIPs. That night, right before i left my home, i felt something strange. My man will be having a meeting near by Pavilion so we are having our supper together after we finish what we're doing. I suddenly feel for him. I stared at him, thinking for him. Looking at him lying on the bed alone makes me feel that he might be lonely. So, i took him with me and drove him to Pavilion with me.

And of course, i dare not carry him down with me. Everyone would have thought i am crazy. And i brought the whole troop. Like i said, i left him the front bucket seat. I parked at the VIP parking right in front of the door and start the whole red carpet thingy going on. I spend an hour taking pictures, by medias, my friends, my people. And suddenly i thought of him. I walked to my car and peek into the window. Well, he cant move himself so, yes, he is THERE.

My people are very very caring and loving people. I didn't notice that they were walking me to my car from my back until i turned around and got shocked coz they were doing the same thing i did - peeking into my window. They tot i forgot something or gonna get something heavy from my car or so, so they wanted to help me with what they thought i was going to do. Then when i told them i's just bored so i walk to my car, they asked me at the same time 'What is that?'. Wow. That's a good question. So, where should i start ? Haha =) I just answer something else so they say he's cute and it strike me, it just, strike me.

I asked them whether they can do me a favor, a quick one. To snap a quick picture of me and him, and make it quick before anyone sees me. And that's how the cute Little Dinosaur adventure started. He snapped his first picture. In Pavilion, in front of The Rainforest Sports Bar, at the VIP entrance, with me. And he still hadn't got his name yet. That night, during the supper, he stays in my bucket seat again ...

On the 28th June 08, i's organizing a pre-launch party at Bar Club for my magazine. I didn't take him with me. But the first thing i did when i reach home was carrying him up from the bed, and hugging him tight, and we took this picture ... his second picture ever taken.

On the 12th July 08, he went out together with us. And it was his third time going out, but first time going out with the both of us together.

And this was the first ever fun stuff that he does. Driving us. Our hearts were filled with so much joy when our face is with much joy. The feeling is different from our everyday laughter. Coz this laughter goes deep into our hearts, and are brought by love, sending the message all the way up to our face.

It was then when it inflect into our hearts that we decided to bring baby down from the car that night. We'd decided not to go home early today so we stopped by a mamak along the Old Klang road for TT. And my man strike the first ever pose he ever did. And this, is his first ever pose, in the first ever picture taken with a 'pose'. Cute ma ? Teehee. I think he's waxing a shy 'Hi!' to the world.

Bringing him out is still a choice then. On the 9th August 08, we're going for a Birthday party i threw for my lil sister in KL. And we'd decided to bring him out with us. This time, he went to the steering, and the gear. We didn't bring him down to the party though.

On the 15th August 08, we brought him along to a trip back to my hometown Kuantan. It was his first trip =) and he's still ... waxing his little shy 'Hi!' to all of you.

I seldom smile back then. Coz i guess i am more of a serious person. But with him, i smiled, from my heart. We took a Presidential Suite for 2 nights in Hyatt. And i guess because there's ample of space in our suite, we start to created emotions and movements for him. He is like, living...having his own soul in him. Look at the picture above, i see a baby's curiosity towards the surroundings and the world had begun...

I couldn't remember the specific date that we named him - Little Dinosaur. But the reason why he was named Little Dinosaur is because he is so small in size ... And thru his eyes, i see an innocent child, neglected and chucked aside by the world. With so much care for everyone around him, and so much love to give, and joy to share ... Little Dinosaur is no longer the replica of my man. Little Dinosaur became a part of us... And this picture, somewhere around those time, those month, he was given a soul. He has a new life ...

And from that day on, Little Dinosaur is no longer alone. He has a place to belong to ... and things to look forward to everyday ... He is cared, loved and pampered. Just like how everyone of us is living everyday in our lives, wanting only the simplest and most basic needs of all mankind, which cant be bought, but hard to be fulfill.

So many things have changed from there on. Not only for him, but for us too. We learn to love, forgive and forget. Our life is different there on ... Our views and perceptions to things had been different too.

This blog is about how Little Dinosaur came into life, touches my heart, and touches so many other along the way. Giving only love, care and joy to the world around him. And being there for all the broken hearts and souls that were abandoned by others, hurt, and left alone in this world. Dont be sad. You have Little Dinosaur with you ...

No matter how different you are, it doesn't matter how others think of you, look at you and what they have to say about you. Deep inside, this is who you are ... and this is who you want to be ... Open your heart ... Do what u want to do, and be who u want to be. Create the impossible and let them say what they want to say ...

To all the beautiful people in this room who had been treated unfairly by others and left alone in this world feeling worthless and lonely, dont give up ! There's always someone, someplace there for you. U never know ... maybe coz u doesn't believe strong enough in yourself, deep inside your heart, telling u just what u can do ... and who u can be ...

You will never be alone my dear ... me and my Little Dinosaur will always be here for you ...
Love Always,
Leng Yein

Sunday, July 18, 2010

They want to have your life too ...

Everyday in my life, i kept reminding myself just how lucky i am, to be made someone special by all of you ... 

What you see in me today, is what made of all the beautiful people on my page.  From Friendster, and from Facebook. They'd never left me. I am never alone. They are the one i would love to thank. And they are the one that i will keep closely to my heart, everyday in my life, with all the gratitude that i could carry with me, and end my day with it. 

Beginning with my friends from Friendster. They were the ones who made me someone. When i came to this big city, i came with nothing but that RM600 buck in my pocket. They were there with me, never left me here wondering the unfamiliar city alone carrying my dreams with me on my back. Witnessing my transformation and had always been there supporting me through the whole journey ... until this very day ...

Then came Facebook. They did the same. They made me felt so welcomed just like how the beautiful people in Friendster had made me feel. But my Facebook friends are more active. They're there with me even till late at night *u late people!!!* Haha ~ But i still love u all so much ... Hehe =) 

I had met so many good people along the way ... And many of you are those i've known from Friendster and Facebook. All the time, my new friends wonder why i could sustain the 'Me' that i always had been. I told them ' Because i have my Friendster friends, and now i have my Facebook friends too'. Alot of them doesn't understand what i was trying to say. But i hope you do. Because you are one of them. You kept my feet on the ground, and held my head high tru all times.

Alot of them see me as their inspiration. But in fact, i see YOU as mine. I've learn from YOU more than what you could possibly learn from me. YOU taught me life just by asking me questions most of the time. And by answering yours, i found mine ...

It is funny how life lessons can come to a person. Most of the people will only learn when they fall real, real hard. Some doesn't even notice their fault and kept on blaming on life and carry on postponing the consequences that they will be facing very very soon without realizing what they have done to themselves. I often wonder ... Why cant they see it ? How come they dont even seemed to notice it ? It is so obvious ! 

I always tell my friends that life comes once and let us live the way we want it to be. And they'll tell me that their life was good until this happen, then that happen, then they have no choice but to do this, and to do that. And something came up, and they thought their life would be better from there on. But then this happen again and that happen out of a sudden, and they have to switch it all around but then something happen again. And they have no choice but to do this, and do that. And now ended up with what they're doing currently. They ask themselves how could this happen to them., and they chose to think that their life was less fortunate. And they're not that lucky. Some even believe that their luck hasn't got hold of them yet after years and years of long wait. And some is still waiting for that luck. And they're now facing so many problems that couldn't be solved out and  so many problems in life that couldn't be all sorted out. And they dont know what to do, and the story goes on...

Different people have different stories in life. Each i found very study-able and learn-able. This is how i learn my life... This, is how you taught me well ...

Over the years, after reading all the things and questions that people wrote to me *Ha ! Gotcha ! U thought i never take time to read all your writings one by one Ha !* Hehe =) I noticed that alot of people are not happy with their current situation. Most of them were not proud of the conditions they were currently in. They're not proud of what they're currently doing. Not happy for what they're currently having. Not sure of what's best for them, and claiming to not having enough of the things in life for themselves. They expected more... Better quality of life, better things in life, better positions in their job, better pay. A better life - for all said. In their head, they are having this 'God... I Want To Have This Kind Of Life' and it fills the whole of their head. They kept thinking about it, telling themselves that they want to have it so badly. That perfect dream... That perfect life that they've visioned...

They are always two side in a mirror. One that u can reflect urself in, and one that you cant. Do you know that most of the people who claim that their life suck didn't realize that they are living in other's people's dream ? What you are currently having, and what you are currently doing are most probably someone else's dream somewhere in this world. When you are busy looking at somebody else, hoping to be them... Somebody else from somewhere else is looking at you, hoping to have your life and be you, too.  When you dream every night wishing your life was like theirs, someone somewhere dream every day and night, hoping their life was like yours too... Why cant you see that ?

They are just like you. Just like how you hoped to be someone else and have what that someone else have. And YOU, are that 'someone else' to somebody  ... As somebody are 'someone else' to you. If you want what they have, do you see what they see ?

They see you, living freely without worries and yet you live like everything else in your life is a disaster to you...***
They see you, taking peanut matters and making it so big, as though they're the end of the world when all you have to do is learn to let go... ***
They see you, believing in a dream that Does exists, but you threw it away when it's in front of your eyes but you didn't realize because you never believe in yourself from the start...***
They see you, making a hard time for yourself when all you need is just a little patience, and spend a little more time to figure things out by yourself... ***
They see you, having that pail of smart little brain juice in your cute little head, but denying and rejecting to use it because u claimed that they are all drained out...***
They see you, been able to live such a good life. But still, u want to throw it away because you want to have somebody else's...***
They see you, complaining that you are not getting the best of things in your life no matter how hard you try and u had tried your best. Without realizing the fact that from the start, u chose to believe that that's the best you can do, and that you've done your best and you've done everything. But you didn't realize that you are that close in getting what you wished for, but you stopped just right before it finally had that chance to come true...***
They see you, checking other people's life everyday, adding it all up and mark it as what you want as your own. Yet you wait and do nothing about it but thinking that you've done your very best. And chose to believe that you are just unlucky, questioning yourself why can't you have what they have whereas *** ( Fill in the blank *** )  <--- Wow ~ Classic ! Standard 1 !!!

Do you get the last line my dear ... Try reading it all over again, and replace the *** with the bracketed  paragraph below. I purposely make the last sentence half hanged after the 'whereas' hoping that you could catch the point of this blog. *giggle* I wrote it as though im writing a song's chorus =) *Teehee* 

*** ( They are just like you. Just like how you hoped to be someone else and have what that someone else have. And YOU, are that 'someone else' to somebody  ... As somebody are 'someone else' to you. If you want what they have, do you see what they see ? )

To those who think that all these while, their life is not something that should be proud of ... To those who think that their life isn't good enough compared to others' life that they ought to see, was great enough ... Always remember the ***

*** ( They are just like you. Just like how you hoped to be someone else and have what that someone else have. And YOU, are that 'someone else' to somebody  ... As somebody are 'someone else' to you. If you want what they have, do you see what they see ? )

This blog is specially written with all my love and concern, dedicated to you ...

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